The past few nights have been really hard, not really sleeping and not being able to get get out work.  I was(still sort of am) a wreck from the weekend.  I don't know if she will talk to me again but I'm not ready to right now.

I left work early today after getting the paper out, I just needed out to clear my head.  I text my best friend and who was slated to be my best man.  He and I were college roommates and just knew each other in and out. Due to him being a CPA and me a reporter getting together to hang out was always a challenge.  I was suprised when I didn't get a message from him just asking how I was doing. About 2 1/2 hours later there was a knock on my door and there he was grinning holding up two pizzas and a case of rootbeer (I don't drink  alcohol when I'm depressed for several personal reasons). 

The funny thing was he didn't talk about her or ask about my feelings.  He just through his normal insult greeting barged in and  flipped on the TV.  We quickly started byinng Madden (I am lousey at that game and he rocks). We just chilled and relaxed, we caught up on each other's jobs, I found out that he to be in Lincolon NE so he stopped on his way down. I asked why he stopped and all he said was, "you would have done it for me."

Allowed me to know that there people who will always be there for me and that it's ok to enjoy life even when it seems dark and lonely. I'm not over everything and I still have a lot to deal with but it does seem a little less lonely.

Thank you to everyone who reached out too me. Even though we may not know each other in the physical releam,  it was nice to see people reach out and help lift the spirits of others.  Even though I think my life stinks right now, I know there are people out there that have it worse then I.  But also it does help keep hope alive to see people help out strangers even when dealing with personal matters.