I am having a lot of mental trouble lately.... now before you worry, not in the men in white coats way, but in the ability to find the mental motivation to actually do what i desire.
I really really want to train hard and well. I think about TKD, moves, techniques etc most of my working day and really want to work hard to learn this find art.
However, the operative work in that statement is "want"! I have the drive to do well but just dont have the motivation i need to actually get up out of my seat and do something about it. This means that I have the normal rush up to grading to clean up my techniques, learn new moves, new korean etc etc and I really dont want it to be this way. I want to learn it all the time, to stretch, get physically fit, train etc so that grading are what they should be, a session to show what I know about this wonderful art.
One problem i guess is is that I have a very stressful and time demanding job (IT New Sales selling software and services) and at the end of each day i am beat the moment i get through the door. I regularly leave my house at 6am to be at a meeting for 9am and my only real time to trains is our monday and wednesday night sessions where my work, and clients, all know i HAVE TO leave on time to get to training.
I guess I will just have to get out there and do it, hopefully the exercise will give me more energy in both my job and further training!!!
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