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Family fitness underground has a martial arts room, so many underground kick boxers go there. somtimes when i go to the gym i end up stretching, master says thru strength is finding the will to push on when there is nothing to push for that a true man dose the right things when no one is looking and when the spirit moves faster than the body you are one with your mind. My body and spirit wants nothing to do with it somedays i cant say i live for tae kwon do because im not willing to die for it and my guage gose byond that of just kicks of tae kwon do. so i do my forms, all the way up to moga sam jang, than pick up 8 lb wieghts and do the same again. if i push to hard i know my endorphans will activate but i dont want to push that hard today, im only alowd to let go of the wieghts at the end of saw jang then stretch the arms then move on till i finish again. then moving onto the wing machine i pushed a little to far. a higher wieght than i usualy do and much more reps than i thought i could do, that was friday, its not tuesday and i dont know what was going on but my body was throbing ever sence that night i trained, o tha i went to the saturday morrning class or thwe conditioning class......... my mother was and still is sick and i got sick from her but my body is much more resistant to sickness because i have herbs and vitamans i use as medician.
o just found out my body needs 1 gram of protiens for every lb i wieght and one more for every lb i wish to gain..... that means i need 202 grames a day and more if i want more weight.......... F that i only drink and eat at max about 70 grames a day and skim milk already that is away to much goin on.... not sure what the p[oint of this journal was but.... im sick but still going to work and makin my paper and my body still hurts especaily my back but im stil here... at school.. with a face that says... why did i get out of bed today..

i've been going thru a trasition from who i naturly am to the opposite of me, usualy im a very kind hearted person but recently the places ive been in have gotten worse and worse and worse, ive moved three diffrent itmes this year and still to no avale with finatual problems, the crim ridden place i live in akes me greatfull for my masters training, other students disrespect him badly but to each his own and the fruit of thweir labor will grow rotten from the tree of their efforts non the less i hate driving so i ride my bike when i can and cycle when its far enough, hey i save gass and i eat alot so i needs my capital to stay alive in such society  but this time was strange, you see for every reaction there is a reaction we all know this from school yes?, diffrance is some plunder into the dark side.. (o yeah its star wars all over again)) master explains that when you lose the reaosn why you train of when your reason for your art is untrue you will always lose. but being in this type of enviroment  you have to get a little bit hard in a sence, dogs following you for food as you see its ribs seeing baby caridges wondering if there is really a baby in it and if there was would you raly be suprised and to the ones who have the half broken gate around the house they are lucky at least they have some defance, i dont complain about my life because hell im alive and to me the arts were created in a time of hardship as a means of agression in order to protect ones self its a memory of agression imbeded in each persons dna and past lives just as instincts were ment to be, this has always been one of my phillosiphys to fighting.

As i keep this strong spirit and moral standard with me i bike fast as im about to be late for school, there are 2 paths, to the left more dangoures and the town gets from bad to worse and to the right is much to long, i usualy take the left path even in the night but the day was no problem no one bothers me in day in that area. im not going to argue with anyone here about how hard they have it in life because the simple rule is to each his own as far as enviroment the same rules apply, i lived in oakland for a short time and biked at night their even, a city with a very high crime and rape status. so taking the path to the left i bike faster and faster as i go onto the cat walk across the freeway i see a little blond girl....... wha?, blue eyes blond hair pink bike........... i get off the bike as to not run her over and ask her... hey you ok?....... ( i cant just leave this little girl when its almost dark) she didnt answer me. i hear myself in the back of my head * leave her and do what you have to* so naturley i start to argue with myself for what seemed like an hour but honestly only about 5 seconds in reality ( i cant leave her) * were going to be late for class and you will fail* ( dont care i win haha good prevails) i put my bike down and ask her
( you need help?) she says ^ no not really^ in a three year old voice , will somone come and get you soon? yeah my sister is comming to take me back to daddy i dont want to go home .... ok well im not leaveing till you get home do you have your sisters phone number?  she says no......... ok well ill stay with you till your sister gets here.
 a moment later her sister comes and i dont want ther to think she is talking to some strange teenager so i start to leav she stops me and says. hey!........ yeah whats up kid..... im marisa whats your name... im dante........ will you be my friend?
 so my hard exterior was immideatly broken by somthing that you only see in the movies my bodys tensness ( i cant spell i know shut up) relaxed and my mind went from closed to open in that instant as if a flood came over fire......... yeah of course ill be your friend....... well if you get home ill be your friend ok?
 she sayd ok and i was on my way...... the intire bike ride over i had no deffence it was strange.... i was broken of hard spirit and took no offance to what i saw with y eyes in this littl quarintiened town that society wanted nothing to do with

I have 2 jobes and one side job 2 of which i am yet to be paid for, im finishing high school and know 2 diffrent martial arts. i have religion and know things that if an outside listener were to hear would turn the mind a spin. i know the true meaning of why i am here. i opened this door knowing what would lie in front of me knowing that i would die for the greater good, my action of what most call immaturity are the product of these, with great knowledge comes great sorrow to the point where you realize egistance is littirarily usless. all people have a sence of this but few seak the truth or take the left handed path the mind and soul change with this knowledge. But for humanity there is hope, the void that has been filled by another in ones life is the omnly chance is happyness while you are alive. so when somone like me, who knows little to much to want to live falls in love its nothing short of a miricle, somone who would share knowledge truth and give the same effection that fills the void. the true meaning of this void is agression, to be known and no longer be a man but a beast within a ever forming body that reflects the soul. the symbol of truth on ones back symbolyses the path chosen by the gods to lead one to the bliss of heaven on earth and im sorry to say but another love will not create this ITS INSIDE THE FIRE OF EVERY MAN THE WATER OF EVERY WOMAN AND DOWN THE SPIN OF EVERY MIND!..... and when somone of this nature loses this thing..... called love....ha ... ha somthing THAT ONLY ANOTHER CAN GIVE WHICH TO SOMONE THAT WEARS THE SYMBOL OF TRUTH WOULD DEAM WEAK TO DEPEND ON ANOTHER TO CREATE LIFE WITHIN ONES SELF IS LOST!? than they have forgotten the true way....... 4 years ive loved this woman and now she dose not love me back, the energy i feel from her is that of anger and confusion black and red is her aura when around me and i knew all alone, but when somone tryes to ignore the truth and accept what is given to them its purly ignorance ( the greatest example would be christianity) people who fallow only one way who look at and do what they are told like sheep and never think outside of what they were brain washed to know, like lambs to the wolvs. ALL THAT I AM WAS BUILT ON THIS WOMAN AND NOW I AM WITHOUT HER. they all tlak like men are evil and wil leav and never love you...... no now its backwards, we loved at one point we wanted to fill the void but so many have scard us with the blade so the heart knows the touch of metal to ones kneck......... so in short...... forget it........ i forgot what i was really born to do and waisted four years on someone who i thought loved me back but i guess you cant be that close to sombody without being so far appart. she was the only one who made me feel like i was loved, like i was n=eeded in the world like i was in another world that would forever be fine, sh emade me forget the truth as if it were a fly neer a spiders web and nothing more. when you feel like no one can take you down and somone comes along that dosnt even have to touch you to break you down than thats it, you have found what youve been looking for. but forget it now, i stand alone burned every bridge over the trubled water, can no longer hide from my personality dissorder a stronger tide is comming and i can either become a beast like it was ment to be or find an animal lover who liked 400psi kicks

 alright guys i guess i have more people that care than i thought so, ill tell you how my thursday went. now i wieght very close to 200 lbs right now and the guy i usualy spar with wieghts 230 and he is related to the master so naturly he is over 6 feet tall and veyr muscular, but mitch ( a 20 year old kid who thinks he is an olymic champion) is very fast but when he kicks it dosent really hurt anyone, what he has in speed he loses in power so im not sure what he would do in a real fight or the kickboxing matches we share so i spard him first, i was not tired as i ate alot and it digested already so i was fine, my specailty is power and deffence, i get kicked it dosent hurt much because i train muy thai, ive devoloped a way of deffence called breaking where blocking with cirtian parts of the body will hurt the attacker and you will come out fine. and so i have an easy time wqith bigger opponents. well basicly i came in for a #3 fast kick and his speed mixed with a jump spin hook kick hooked me with his heel to my jaw, but as i said....deffence and he dosent kick hard, so i was not brought to my knees but instead only stuned by his speed....... i was ashamed of myself as thought i felt i was not worthy to where my belt, he is a second dan and close to third but still... i felt a sorrow that i couldnt even feel if my own father died i felt defeat and the master ( closest thing to my father) asured me that if i train in speed more i will " pwn" him
 after this i put much more effort into my training
 and this is what came from my defeat

I got bored so i want to play with you guys/girls, i wanna make a story and for each part of the story you will have a choice of what you may do, kind alike a adventure book but you make the story. itll be fun ay!? lets start and hope enough people like this to actuly respond ^_^

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ok so as you probably know by now i go to the gym before i work, but i met this very nice person on tkdspace so i stayed and talked to them for a little while before i went to the gym then to work, ( so i only got about thirty minuets of workout time) i didnt get much done but it was what i cal an abilitie check. after a hard workout i like to rest alot then check my body and see what new abilities it has, so the last exercise ( that was in another blog with the wieghts and forms) created very hard blocks and punches and even the blocks now whipe with my clothing. i went to work and..... well u guys know by now im a waiter but i only made 40$ in tips tonight
 i wanted at least 50 but i have work sunday morrning which means more than 50$ in tips with people comming from church and groutchy old people. im a little afriad im going to get eatin by the pressure and stress of how many people are there but ive faced tougher things.
 ive become  infatuated with a new book i found at barns and noble that i dont wish to buy but just keep going back to read it, its helping me with my meditation which in turn helps my skills.
 ok dont know if you guys know but im a peckitarian. which means i only eat fish, anything that wa;lks on earth i wont eat and if you want to know why you can message me and ask but i have reasons. so there is a new restruant in town called swish or flippers or sothing like that. that only sells sea food...... and my mother knows the restruant........ and its a very nice five star restruant so if your thinking what im thinking.......... o ya, either that or i go to buca de bepo which i would only get into because there is somone there that has a thing for me that claims she can get me a job but i dont need her to achive my goals honestly.

 GOOD THING IS I HAVE TOMORROW OFF! ...... i get to spend time with my brother or mother which ever comes first to get me
 o and if anyone wants to know how the wii hunt is going.... its bad, i saved 300$ for this thing and no one has it, it sells out in an houre and i have connections all over game stop and still cant get one, its the #1 system out right now, hell i even have smash brawl reservd and payed for already......... ive waited 2 weeks and they said a shipment would be in today but i guess i have to wait till tomorrow

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Hello again {i wonder if any of you know my real name}.
well hopefully you saw the last blog about my day for training and the wieghts idea, { you have to do it for more than 30min and never let them go} so after that day of about 2 hours or so of training i went to another class in the morrning and my body was already killing me, i pushed myself those 2 days so much that i started to see my own aura in the mirror as my vision went blurry.

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Well i did my workout last night, did one hundred push ups and most of my sit ups.
i belive in finger strength purley for spear and knife hand strickes. so my last blog i went to the gym and while i was there i tryed somthing new that i havent tryed for awhile. i picked some eight lbd wieghts and do my forms two times over with them, i did this for about an hour and after about a half an hour my endorphans kicked in, i love endorphans because with the right meditation you can controle thme any time you wish but this time it was not the case, this time they did it by themselvs which lets me know that the training i was doing was very good at this moment. you  if you plan to do this do it slow, 8 lb wieghts being punched at that kind of speed will start to pull your joints and doing it slower helps with your muscle conditioning.

so before i go to work i ussualy go to my gym which is right across from it when i have time or while its open about an hour or two before i do work. im a waited, i went in at 5 to go to the gym and trianed for 2 hours then went to work at 7pm till 12 am went home fell asleep by 2 am then woke up at seven am then went to another tae kwon do class which my mother teaches. i was already tired from the night before and my body was soar and did not get any sleep to help and rebuild the body which is what it demanded that night so my body was rejecting the workouts that i was pushing on it and i was starting to get blurry vision but the bluryer it got the more determained i got so it evend out, my body knew what to do which is nice to me.
 so i only got about 4 or 5 hours of sleep , i go to 2 diffrent marial art schools and 2 jobs one of which i dont get paid and i go to school still hahaha. i weight 200 lbs but im still trying to condition my body for abilities i would like to have im still working on it,
 well night guys, hey if any of you try the forms with weights in your hands, tell me how that worked out for you k?

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Todays conditioning
place: gym
Condition: chest & abs
60-100 pushups
50-100 sit ups
All forms up to pow-jang, bag work and machina


Today i have work from 7pm to 12 am, i work at a restruant and im a waiter, befor i go to work i stop by the gym sence its right next to my job. the last gym that i went to had girls trying to ignore guys or pick them up and al the guys were there to look at the girls, i got tired of it and i left so its like 4:30 now, ill get there by 5 stay for 2 hours or so and go to work. More recently ive been playing wih the way my body works, at the moment im trying a new thing called "peskatarian" means someone who dosent eat meat they only eat fish which means im going to have to go back to my protien shakes or buy som of the good stuff from quixtar.
Todays goal for tips is at least thirty dollars, last times tips for a week ended up being
100$ which means i can now buy a nintendo wii but they sell out fast which means i must wake up early to revice one and have conections because i got mine to late
 still gatta apply for colleges i have about ten days before the dead line. i dont know wether to save these tips today, spend them on bills, or save them for quixtar items hm now sure, anyway i have tae kwon do class in the morning at 9 am so i should just do what i gata do now, good thing im not hungry or i wouldnt go to the gym at all.

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