idk as i get older i get more depressed and cold and i get much more angrier. and dreams are just something i think about in my bed.. nothing is really exciting in my life at all right now... tkd has just become another day and another escape from my tears. things could be much better .. i try to be happy and have a smile on my face but some times even thow im smiling tears comes down. AHH some times i wish i could be any ware but here! some peoples voices makes me scared and makes my hart sink and feel as if im getting stabbed in the hart. i try to be nice and do good things but i keep on wondering why?? why should i keep going if we are all just going to die? and what if their is no after life? what then? idk i have so many fancies that includes me running away! well not really running just getting away from all of this ... i just want to be in a place that im happy at and wont cry every night in bed..gosh i need to stick it up! lol one day i just hope i get out of here and wont ever have to hear the voice again ...
