Family fitness underground has a martial arts room, so many underground kick boxers go there. somtimes when i go to the gym i end up stretching, master says thru strength is finding the will to push on when there is nothing to push for that a true man dose the right things when no one is looking and when the spirit moves faster than the body you are one with your mind. My body and spirit wants nothing to do with it somedays i cant say i live for tae kwon do because im not willing to die for it and my guage gose byond that of just kicks of tae kwon do. so i do my forms, all the way up to moga sam jang, than pick up 8 lb wieghts and do the same again. if i push to hard i know my endorphans will activate but i dont want to push that hard today, im only alowd to let go of the wieghts at the end of saw jang then stretch the arms then move on till i finish again. then moving onto the wing machine i pushed a little to far. a higher wieght than i usualy do and much more reps than i thought i could do, that was friday, its not tuesday and i dont know what was going on but my body was throbing ever sence that night i trained, o tha i went to the saturday morrning class or thwe conditioning class......... my mother was and still is sick and i got sick from her but my body is much more resistant to sickness because i have herbs and vitamans i use as medician.
o just found out my body needs 1 gram of protiens for every lb i wieght and one more for every lb i wish to gain..... that means i need 202 grames a day and more if i want more weight.......... F that i only drink and eat at max about 70 grames a day and skim milk already that is away to much goin on.... not sure what the p[oint of this journal was but.... im sick but still going to work and makin my paper and my body still hurts especaily my back but im stil here... at school.. with a face that says... why did i get out of bed today..
