Anyone who knows me will testify that Im a bit of a contradiction in terms, I play rugby for my university, and volleyball. My degree is in English Literature and I am a published writer in small magazines and collections. I am also a Taekwondo 1st Dan black belt, and I used to be a pretty mean fighter.
Unfortunatley since I got my 1st Dan I found my enthusiasm waning from taekwondo to other sports and I lost touch with my old club and the practicing, I stopped competing and let myself get a bit out of shape.
So, nearly four years later I took a vow to myself that I was going to get back into it, training hard and giving myself the goal to compete once again.
I started attending a class near my university, the problem was that I couldnt seem to rediscover my enthusiasm within the confines of the new class. My new instructor was the same grade as me and the majority of the class were kids. It just didnt feel right, so I left and in the past three months have been given joint power to instruct and take a fledgling club within my university. It is however really difficult because I desperately need to get my edge back otherwise I will feel like a fraud.
Am i being too hard on myself? Its just I set myself a high standard and I notice it A LOT if I drop below it wheras others dont.
Joe
