Had a pre-pre grading last night and unfortunately I am not quite ready to go for my blue tag in May. Even though I was and still am disappointed about it, I have only been back in training for 7 weeks and can't really expected to be back at green belt standard yet.
My instructor was very supportive and said that there wasn't loads that I had to re-learn just a few bits and pieces. I know that I don't really know my patterns instinctively enough so they go to pieces under pressure. I have only been learning 3 step for the last couple of weeks (I don't think we did 3 step when I trained before). So all in all I have gained myself an extra 3 months.
I am looking on the bright side. I have been working really hard at trying to relearn everything, but I want to enjoy Tae Kwon Do and not be stressing about it. Afterall, if I achieved my blue tag by the skin of my teeth I would be moving on to more difficult things without being fully comfortable with the moves up to my current belt level.
Don't get me wrong, it is not all about gradings to me. I had just set myself a target and I was disappointed that I hadn't achieved it. I think perhaps I was setting myself too bigger challenge in too shorter time.
In reflection probably I should be feeling a bit of relief rather than disappointment...and probably in a couple days I shall.
It least last night somebody gave me a green belt so I am no longer training wearing a yellow belt with a dodgy sewn on green tag and confusing everyone utterly!
), but suddenly you feel ready and go for it. What are an extra 3 months if you haven't been training for 13 years?! Keep up the good training (I don't know if you say it like that in english, but I do my best 
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