I have 2 jobes and one side job 2 of which i am yet to be paid for, im finishing high school and know 2 diffrent martial arts. i have religion and know things that if an outside listener were to hear would turn the mind a spin. i know the true meaning of why i am here. i opened this door knowing what would lie in front of me knowing that i would die for the greater good, my action of what most call immaturity are the product of these, with great knowledge comes great sorrow to the point where you realize egistance is littirarily usless. all people have a sence of this but few seak the truth or take the left handed path the mind and soul change with this knowledge. But for humanity there is hope, the void that has been filled by another in ones life is the omnly chance is happyness while you are alive. so when somone like me, who knows little to much to want to live falls in love its nothing short of a miricle, somone who would share knowledge truth and give the same effection that fills the void. the true meaning of this void is agression, to be known and no longer be a man but a beast within a ever forming body that reflects the soul. the symbol of truth on ones back symbolyses the path chosen by the gods to lead one to the bliss of heaven on earth and im sorry to say but another love will not create this ITS INSIDE THE FIRE OF EVERY MAN THE WATER OF EVERY WOMAN AND DOWN THE SPIN OF EVERY MIND!..... and when somone of this nature loses this thing..... called love....ha ... ha somthing THAT ONLY ANOTHER CAN GIVE WHICH TO SOMONE THAT WEARS THE SYMBOL OF TRUTH WOULD DEAM WEAK TO DEPEND ON ANOTHER TO CREATE LIFE WITHIN ONES SELF IS LOST!? than they have forgotten the true way....... 4 years ive loved this woman and now she dose not love me back, the energy i feel from her is that of anger and confusion black and red is her aura when around me and i knew all alone, but when somone tryes to ignore the truth and accept what is given to them its purly ignorance ( the greatest example would be christianity) people who fallow only one way who look at and do what they are told like sheep and never think outside of what they were brain washed to know, like lambs to the wolvs. ALL THAT I AM WAS BUILT ON THIS WOMAN AND NOW I AM WITHOUT HER. they all tlak like men are evil and wil leav and never love you...... no now its backwards, we loved at one point we wanted to fill the void but so many have scard us with the blade so the heart knows the touch of metal to ones kneck......... so in short...... forget it........ i forgot what i was really born to do and waisted four years on someone who i thought loved me back but i guess you cant be that close to sombody without being so far appart. she was the only one who made me feel like i was loved, like i was n=eeded in the world like i was in another world that would forever be fine, sh emade me forget the truth as if it were a fly neer a spiders web and nothing more. when you feel like no one can take you down and somone comes along that dosnt even have to touch you to break you down than thats it, you have found what youve been looking for. but forget it now, i stand alone burned every bridge over the trubled water, can no longer hide from my personality dissorder a stronger tide is comming and i can either become a beast like it was ment to be or find an animal lover who liked 400psi kicks
